Mei turned 2 yesterday. I feel like I’ve had her forever, but I also feel like I’ve only had a few short months. I really feel like the past two years have kind of flown by.
And yes, it’s important that I mention this milestone, but I’m afraid that this blog post won’t actually be about my dog. Yesterday we celebrated by going out and playing her favorite game: fetching frisbees, and she’ll get a nice steak dinner tonight. But in terms of talking about her birthday, that’s all there really is to talk about.
What I really want to talk about is just how fast the time has gone by. Mei entered my life at a turning point in my life, as did Meeko. Meeko was the dog who really helped me through one of the most difficult points in my life, when I was at my worst. Mei was the dog I brought into my life when I began my life as an adult with a “real” adult job. While getting an adult job and learning to become a “professional” (whatever the hell that means) is a milestone, I think what has changed the most out of the two years that I’ve had Mei is my mental health and emotional wellbeing.
On Mei’s 2nd birthday, my very first personal essay was published on Huffington Post. I didn’t plan it that way, that’s just how it happened. Getting this piece published is, for me, proof of how far I’ve come when it comes to accepting my imperfect self, and being honest about who I am.
I was afraid of writing anything publicly for the longest time. I didn’t like that I was opening my life up for everyone to see, and I also think I was afraid of being judged by people I most likely haven’t ever met. Anything that makes me vulnerable, in general, just scares the shit out of me, if I’m being honest.
But the last few months, I realized that there was no way I could write without opening myself up to some criticism, and I sure as hell wasn’t going to be able to write anything good without being at least just a bit vulnerable.
In the past couple of years I’ve done a lot of growing, I think. Mei, too, but… you know, me as well.
Anyway, happy birthday, ya wild animal!